Assigments,tests..

Frankly speaking here,the most terrible part in my life now is that I have to go through all these
headcracking tasks..
I am wilting..
I just cant imagine how "wonderful" life I will be leading for the next 9 months..
I loathe this a lot..
The most crucial and unavoidable facts which I have to deal with now is here right in front of me..
My mum always gives me hopes,inspirations to enlighten the darkest tunnel that I have to pass through for the rest of my life..
She often mentions that we are not leadin' a life if we are too scared to fail or undergo hardships in order to succeed..
Only by education,people would only look up at us and we wont get humiliated by them just because of our narrow-minded opinions..
We will become losers and will be always defeated by our enemies..
Later we start to envy them and here every single thing surfaces-rebellions,crimes,injustices and so on..
Though this life is soo damn difficult and to make thing worst is my stone-age attitudes..
I always reason this to myself and to tell you all the truth I never believe in ownself..
To add things even worst,I have no confidence at all to go on eventhough I do know that life as a student would never be at ease..
It is disheartening and inflicting..
Fortunate enough God sent someone who really motivates me..
Now,I got back my spirit and g0d-willing it will continue till I manage to reserve a place in Aussie-
I really need some kinds of meditations you know,hihi..
In readers digest it"s stated that all forms of activities or even when you are praying for someone who is at a great distance from you,at the north pole or at the top of the mountain,actually it does help to boost our confidence level as well as it you will much at ease and definitely better in the sense that it keeps your mind in peace.
On top of that,it is also a way to lengthen our lifespans-b
This is due to the fact that we always feel happy and calm and it helps to clear our mind away with the greatest displacement from all the heart-wilting problems..
It is like we are pretending that we are fine and hiding behind the truths and every idiotic and all those silly things that happen in life..
Such a great pretender-B
That is the reason people always say that life is a tough journey and to go through it successfully
we have to willingly accept the facts that we are not the best and there is always somebody who is much greater and even far better than us..
Now,I have to look at this with a new perspective..
Stumbles upon something although it is the most crucial part that occurs in our life does not really a matter..
To fail now does not mean I will fail forever and it does not mean too that I cant rise and stand out among the great people in one fine day..
As a human,I have many weaknesses which I have to brush up to make each thing much smoother in my life not just to stare and wait for all the nasty things to come to me..
No!get rid of me!
With all my strength I promise I will not give up in this important year I do want to put my life at risk just because I am too scared of my own little shadow..
God,family and him will be always stand next to me to give me strength and inspire me..
Although now right at this moment I am feeling like bursting out and initially intended to to go to the top of mountain and yell at the top of my heart so that no one could ever hear me should be the last thing for me to consider now..
I have to accept the facts that I couldnt turn back the time unless doraemon comes and rescue me from this drowning ocean which makes me unable to breathe..
In conclusion,life would be harder in front of you Nabilah and there are more challenges and risks that you will face in the near future..
So,I have to accept this..
I will do and struggle for the sake of my own future..
I will,I will,I will,I will,I will,I will survive...
AMIN...-*-

Slumdog Millionaire

This is a movie which I have watched recently..
Before this,I have heard my mates talking about this award-winning movie..
Well,it was casted in Mumbai,India and what is more impressive is that no large sum of money was spent on it..
I could say that it"s a great job done by the director and deserves this achievement..
It is a very simple and sweet movie..this is the one that people are lookin' for now..
Keep it short and simple yet sweet..
Based on the word "slum" itself,it denotes that this will be something which is related to poverty..
but when the words are combined together,which stand as "Slumdog Millionaire",this sounds even more interesting..dont you think so?
..It revolves around the life of a young Indian boy who almost win the 1 miilion rupees and the most surprising part is that he is not well-educated..
He has suffered enough during his chidhood life..struggling and suffering just to survive..
Life as a beggar is really a torture for an innocent little boy like him..
On the other side of the coin,these hardships he has gone through has taught him a lot..
He dwells with all sorts of people around him and becomes more matured before his age..
This moulds him into a better person..
Unfortunately,when he is about to win the one million rupees,his past life starts haunting him again and being threatened by wicked people is really a disgusting thing to see..
I guess i end it here..
Have loads of stuffs to handle..
You should watch it and enjoy!
Tata..

The Seniors

The feeling of being left by them still makes me sick..
Really2 sick..
I am still affected by this..
The sorrowness and also the thrills have really changed me into a better person..
Mixtures of feeling..sad+proud of them+nervous as I have realised my mistakes and weaknesses and really have to overcome them a.s.a.p to secure a place in one of the Australian universities..
I was inspired by them to strive my very best in my studies..
Thank u people..
No more fallin' asleep in class..
No mOre procrastination..
I just want to make sure I"l reach my dreamland-Australia-
The reasons?
I want to meet the Aborigines..haha..
Of course everybody wants the best education..
My choices would be either uni of Queensland or UNSW..
Pray hard for that..
I hope I could make it this time..
I could see the excitement that presents from their expressions and their parents were busy snapping hundreds of photos before their children left..
I was really pushed by this-MAKE YOUR MOVE NABILAH-and they have ignited a fire in me..
Thank u once again..

He Knows Well


Arguing,conflicting with my own self,
With the eternal parts which ever existed inside me,
He Knows Well..

Again,It Lingers In My Mind,
Clueless,With No Words To Utter,
Deep Inside Me,
I Just Cant Resist It..
Only He Knows Well..

And Again,Looking,Staring At Those Nasty Things,
It Glued Me At My Seat,Unable To Move,
With Everything That I Have To Deal With,
Only He Knows Well...

I Keep On Praying,Praying,And Praying,
Yeah,
After All The Griefs That Left A Scar On Me,
It Hurts,And Again It Continues,
He Knows Well.......