I am a doll that' s not woth a billion dollar,
You are too engrossed with virtual hugs,
I am no more than a stone,
Don't ever imitate me,
Cause you will be whimpering for the rest of your life
I am doll with a scrawny neck,
You adore me more than I could ever imagine,
I could not even move a mountain,
Don't ever imitate me,
Cause you will be clinging to a branch just to survive.
I am doll with a pale look,
Your passion for me made me worry,
I could not even twist my own body,
Don't ever imitate me,
Cause I will leave a scar on your lovely heart.
I am doll with a dead soul,
You always kiss me when I am resting,
My mind is gone,I am spinning around,
Don't ever imitate me,
Cuse you will loosel your faith in me.
Yeah,I'm still the sam e dull doll,
You always dream of me days and nights,
I am just a compound that could easily break into pieces and dusts,
Don't ever imitate me,
Cause you will have no more tears to shed~
Thank you~^^
Monday, June 29, 2009
Saturday, May 23, 2009
mULtiCuLturaliSm
hey2 im back here again..
this time im gonna write a little bit about multiculturalism based on my reading..
The term 'melting pot' is used to represent a community of many backgrounds,cultures.religions n etc..
In my opinion,I would say that being in a multi-diversed society is definitely a good one as this inculcates good values to people such as teamwork,mutual respect,and be more affectionate towards others..
For example,in Australia,known as a multi-cultured country as almost all the people there was born overseas and have settled down in aussie since the''gold rush''era..
In 1960 when gold was discovered in Victoria,many immigrants especially from Asian constituencies preferred to get jobs in the goldfields and hope for a better pay..
Initially,there's a policy known as a 'White Policy'in which people from Asian or so called non-whites would never be allowed to live in Australia.This is so because they intended to preserve the Whites culture as well as they re scared of the Chinese workers known as ''untiring workers' in the goldfields,so they were afraid of them for being so competitive in discovering gold in Aussie..
Later,when there was a steep rise in the number of the senior citizens and there were lack of young workers in order to exploit the resources in Aussie,then only they came to realise the importance of an ''open policy'' in their country....
Thus,the policy which was initially introduced was no more in favor and later waa demolished to encourage people from different continents to work and given permanent residents status if they live there for three years..
So,people from a myriad of cultures,origins regardless of their skin colors,religions or language are most welcomed to Australia and this no more formed a barrier between them and known as a ''chameleon spirit'' till now..
I guess that's all I want to write about this and wish me luck for my mid-term..
Mum,dad,I will do my best for you-)
this time im gonna write a little bit about multiculturalism based on my reading..
The term 'melting pot' is used to represent a community of many backgrounds,cultures.religions n etc..
In my opinion,I would say that being in a multi-diversed society is definitely a good one as this inculcates good values to people such as teamwork,mutual respect,and be more affectionate towards others..
For example,in Australia,known as a multi-cultured country as almost all the people there was born overseas and have settled down in aussie since the''gold rush''era..
In 1960 when gold was discovered in Victoria,many immigrants especially from Asian constituencies preferred to get jobs in the goldfields and hope for a better pay..
Initially,there's a policy known as a 'White Policy'in which people from Asian or so called non-whites would never be allowed to live in Australia.This is so because they intended to preserve the Whites culture as well as they re scared of the Chinese workers known as ''untiring workers' in the goldfields,so they were afraid of them for being so competitive in discovering gold in Aussie..
Later,when there was a steep rise in the number of the senior citizens and there were lack of young workers in order to exploit the resources in Aussie,then only they came to realise the importance of an ''open policy'' in their country....
Thus,the policy which was initially introduced was no more in favor and later waa demolished to encourage people from different continents to work and given permanent residents status if they live there for three years..
So,people from a myriad of cultures,origins regardless of their skin colors,religions or language are most welcomed to Australia and this no more formed a barrier between them and known as a ''chameleon spirit'' till now..
I guess that's all I want to write about this and wish me luck for my mid-term..
Mum,dad,I will do my best for you-)
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Untitled
I would randomly choose some topics to talk on this time..
Firstly,I am not feeling really well these past few days as Im stressin' myself up..
Now I really miss my school very much-miss the life there as it's less stressful compared to here..
I feel like breakin down but what's so unfortunate about me is that I dont have anyone who's willing to lend me their shoulders to cry on..
Let's dont talk bout my family here as they are far away from me now..
Sometimes I do feel lonely as I dont have so many friends here..
I know im not really friendly and warm like others so this is the fact that I have to accept..
Only my old friends know me well..
Honestly Im still struggling to adapt with this environment eventhough I ve tried my best to fix everything up..
Im disappointed with myself..
Im a loser..loser..loser..
Studies are gettin tougher with assignments.tests and homeworks overflowing us..
Let's forget about studies (I mean temporarily not forever)..
Let's talk crap..
Can I talk about my crush?^^,
Once upon a time..
When I was in form 3,I went to a tuition centre called "GEMILANG TUITION CENTRE"..
yup it was really "gemilang",shimmering,sparkling and whatsoever ..
It;s very common for the students in my school to develop crush on boys from Malacca High School as they're thought as smart and charming but they have no effects on me as I always ignored them in our tuition classes..
Unfortunately that only lasted for awhile
There;s a boy who really captured my sight as well as my heart..
I know it's a natural feelin but that was the first time I ever felt that way to a boy..
I was too shy and reserved to speak out and told none of my friends about him so I kept it at the very bottom of my heart..
Here starts a happy story for me..
One day when I returned from school,I received a text message from an unknown number and 3 missed calls wishin me a gud luck for my cumin PMR..
I was trying to remember all my mates who owned that number but failed till I discovered from my own friend that was his number..
Those were the best moments in my life as like he knew my real feelin towards him..
Since then,we started to sms,chattin with each other through msn..
After we;ve received our results and both of us managed to get straight a's,we always hang out together in a shopping complex..
He said that he;s gonna apply for a boarding school,MRSM, and asked me to do the same thing
but I was not so interested in transferring school as I always think that it was such a waste of time because just two more years left for us to finish school..
I was in a conflict with him at that time because even when I cried in front of him tellin him not to leave me just for the sake of that school he wouldnt listen to me anymore..
On my birthday(28th/12)he gave me a present,a cute teddy bear with a small card askin for an apology yet he still insisted to transfer school..
Eventually,I have made up my mind and decided to let him go but I said to him,"Please dont lose contact with me"..He promised me the same thing too..
Few months later,I missed him terribly and everything didnt seem right to me..
God I need him to be around me..
I tried to call him but failed..
I didnt know what happened to him since that day till now..
If you re readin this,do call me..
Where are you now??
I guess I need to stop here if not I will become worst..
Firstly,I am not feeling really well these past few days as Im stressin' myself up..
Now I really miss my school very much-miss the life there as it's less stressful compared to here..
I feel like breakin down but what's so unfortunate about me is that I dont have anyone who's willing to lend me their shoulders to cry on..
Let's dont talk bout my family here as they are far away from me now..
Sometimes I do feel lonely as I dont have so many friends here..
I know im not really friendly and warm like others so this is the fact that I have to accept..
Only my old friends know me well..
Honestly Im still struggling to adapt with this environment eventhough I ve tried my best to fix everything up..
Im disappointed with myself..
Im a loser..loser..loser..
Studies are gettin tougher with assignments.tests and homeworks overflowing us..
Let's forget about studies (I mean temporarily not forever)..
Let's talk crap..
Can I talk about my crush?^^,
Once upon a time..
When I was in form 3,I went to a tuition centre called "GEMILANG TUITION CENTRE"..
yup it was really "gemilang",shimmering,sparkling and whatsoever ..
It;s very common for the students in my school to develop crush on boys from Malacca High School as they're thought as smart and charming but they have no effects on me as I always ignored them in our tuition classes..
Unfortunately that only lasted for awhile
There;s a boy who really captured my sight as well as my heart..
I know it's a natural feelin but that was the first time I ever felt that way to a boy..
I was too shy and reserved to speak out and told none of my friends about him so I kept it at the very bottom of my heart..
Here starts a happy story for me..
One day when I returned from school,I received a text message from an unknown number and 3 missed calls wishin me a gud luck for my cumin PMR..
I was trying to remember all my mates who owned that number but failed till I discovered from my own friend that was his number..
Those were the best moments in my life as like he knew my real feelin towards him..
Since then,we started to sms,chattin with each other through msn..
After we;ve received our results and both of us managed to get straight a's,we always hang out together in a shopping complex..
He said that he;s gonna apply for a boarding school,MRSM, and asked me to do the same thing
but I was not so interested in transferring school as I always think that it was such a waste of time because just two more years left for us to finish school..
I was in a conflict with him at that time because even when I cried in front of him tellin him not to leave me just for the sake of that school he wouldnt listen to me anymore..
On my birthday(28th/12)he gave me a present,a cute teddy bear with a small card askin for an apology yet he still insisted to transfer school..
Eventually,I have made up my mind and decided to let him go but I said to him,"Please dont lose contact with me"..He promised me the same thing too..
Few months later,I missed him terribly and everything didnt seem right to me..
God I need him to be around me..
I tried to call him but failed..
I didnt know what happened to him since that day till now..
If you re readin this,do call me..
Where are you now??
I guess I need to stop here if not I will become worst..
Saturday, March 14, 2009
IT'S BEEN AWHILE
t's been awhile since I've heard your voice,
That warm comforting voice,
Always uttering helpful words of wisdom,
You always knew so much life than I.
Teaching me day by day..
You watched me grow into a womanI
Always supporting me no matter what,
You were proud of what I was becoming,
Loving me endlessly without a question,never judging,
While you watching me mature into a person I am today,
I was watching you struggle to stay alive.
You said over and over that everything would end up all right in the end.
You always knew just what to say to make the world seem like it was on our side,
You were wrong this time..
The world wasn't on our side anymore.
It took you away from me,
Leavin' me alone,longing for
your love,
Without someone to tell me I was beautiful,
To wipe my tears as they rolled down my cheek,
Without someone to share my joys,my fears,and my triumphs.
I heard your voice again last night,
I've missed it everyday since you've gone.
I saw your smile last night,
I have been wishing it every second since You have been away.
In my dream You said..
You'd always be near
And now that I think of it,
You said the same thing
The day You left me.
You always did know just what to say
To make the world seem like it
Was on our side..
That warm comforting voice,
Always uttering helpful words of wisdom,
You always knew so much life than I.
Teaching me day by day..
You watched me grow into a womanI
Always supporting me no matter what,
You were proud of what I was becoming,
Loving me endlessly without a question,never judging,
While you watching me mature into a person I am today,
I was watching you struggle to stay alive.
You said over and over that everything would end up all right in the end.
You always knew just what to say to make the world seem like it was on our side,
You were wrong this time..
The world wasn't on our side anymore.
It took you away from me,
Leavin' me alone,longing for
your love,
Without someone to tell me I was beautiful,
To wipe my tears as they rolled down my cheek,
Without someone to share my joys,my fears,and my triumphs.
I heard your voice again last night,
I've missed it everyday since you've gone.
I saw your smile last night,
I have been wishing it every second since You have been away.
In my dream You said..
You'd always be near
And now that I think of it,
You said the same thing
The day You left me.
You always did know just what to say
To make the world seem like it
Was on our side..
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Miseries
Today,I started my day in a quite terrible way..
Everything didnt seem fine to me..
Today,we are supposed to submit our documentary project for our english..
Since only three of us in my group-(..so I was havin'a very hectic time for the last 3 days before the deadline which is today..
I have been sleeping damn late- which was around 6-7 a.m..
It was tiresome and adds on with my "talents" at editing..
My failure really showed up this time -(
I would go to Izat"s house each night just for the sake of editing our videos..
Honestly,editing videos is not easy man..
really have to admit it..If anybody wants me to involve in this thing it would be a definitely "no-no"from me.Iwould say I give up-(
We had chosen a topic on "teenage pregnancy",yeah initially it was kinda tough to scrutinize this topic as we have to consider many things so that our doc will not look bias..
The most challenging part was when I have to make an appointment with one of the organisation in Hulu Langat that protects teenagers who are pregnant..
They do a voluntary work without demanding for any rewards from the parents..
I made few calls before this so that everything would run smoothly..
At first,they asked me to send an email then I thought it was over and they had enough with the e-mail..
So,I waited patiently for few days yet no reply was sent,no calls were made,just calmly waited for everything to happen..
Enough with waiting so later I called them asking for the response and it was really a heart-aching scene when the woman on the phone said this to me.."Huh?what email?who are you?
we didnt receive any emails and we will never open them"..and I was like:What the..
I am not used to write formal letters and I took a really long period of time just to complete a so called "perfect" letter..
I planned well for it which was about the flow of our documentary and after all the hard works I have put in it,suddenly they mentioned that they will never ever open emails?
If I was a devil,I would definitely scream at that woman and crash my phone against a wall..
Since I am a good girl-b,as a human being who is ever created by god I have a heart and tried to take this constructively..
From there,I have learnt to write a good letter and learnt to be more tolerant and patience plays its role here..
It taught me to be more matured and passionate towards others despite all the challenges we have undergone for the last one month..
Thank god evrything has over and pray hard for a good appreciation from Miss Chan..->
Everything didnt seem fine to me..
Today,we are supposed to submit our documentary project for our english..
Since only three of us in my group-(..so I was havin'a very hectic time for the last 3 days before the deadline which is today..
I have been sleeping damn late- which was around 6-7 a.m..
It was tiresome and adds on with my "talents" at editing..
My failure really showed up this time -(
I would go to Izat"s house each night just for the sake of editing our videos..
Honestly,editing videos is not easy man..
really have to admit it..If anybody wants me to involve in this thing it would be a definitely "no-no"from me.Iwould say I give up-(
We had chosen a topic on "teenage pregnancy",yeah initially it was kinda tough to scrutinize this topic as we have to consider many things so that our doc will not look bias..
The most challenging part was when I have to make an appointment with one of the organisation in Hulu Langat that protects teenagers who are pregnant..
They do a voluntary work without demanding for any rewards from the parents..
I made few calls before this so that everything would run smoothly..
At first,they asked me to send an email then I thought it was over and they had enough with the e-mail..
So,I waited patiently for few days yet no reply was sent,no calls were made,just calmly waited for everything to happen..
Enough with waiting so later I called them asking for the response and it was really a heart-aching scene when the woman on the phone said this to me.."Huh?what email?who are you?
we didnt receive any emails and we will never open them"..and I was like:What the..
I am not used to write formal letters and I took a really long period of time just to complete a so called "perfect" letter..
I planned well for it which was about the flow of our documentary and after all the hard works I have put in it,suddenly they mentioned that they will never ever open emails?
If I was a devil,I would definitely scream at that woman and crash my phone against a wall..
Since I am a good girl-b,as a human being who is ever created by god I have a heart and tried to take this constructively..
From there,I have learnt to write a good letter and learnt to be more tolerant and patience plays its role here..
It taught me to be more matured and passionate towards others despite all the challenges we have undergone for the last one month..
Thank god evrything has over and pray hard for a good appreciation from Miss Chan..->
Saturday, March 7, 2009
I Believe I Can Fly"
I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms
If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
[1]
I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh
If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
[Repeat 1]
Hey, cuz I believe in me, oh
If I can see it, then I can be it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
[Repeat 1]
Hey, if I just spread my wings
I can fly
I can fly
I can fly, hey
If I just spread my wings
I can fly
Fly-eye-eye
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Assigments,tests..
Frankly speaking here,the most terrible part in my life now is that I have to go through all these
headcracking tasks..
I am wilting..
I just cant imagine how "wonderful" life I will be leading for the next 9 months..
I loathe this a lot..
The most crucial and unavoidable facts which I have to deal with now is here right in front of me..
My mum always gives me hopes,inspirations to enlighten the darkest tunnel that I have to pass through for the rest of my life..
She often mentions that we are not leadin' a life if we are too scared to fail or undergo hardships in order to succeed..
Only by education,people would only look up at us and we wont get humiliated by them just because of our narrow-minded opinions..
We will become losers and will be always defeated by our enemies..
Later we start to envy them and here every single thing surfaces-rebellions,crimes,injustices and so on..
Though this life is soo damn difficult and to make thing worst is my stone-age attitudes..
I always reason this to myself and to tell you all the truth I never believe in ownself..
To add things even worst,I have no confidence at all to go on eventhough I do know that life as a student would never be at ease..
It is disheartening and inflicting..
Fortunate enough God sent someone who really motivates me..
Now,I got back my spirit and g0d-willing it will continue till I manage to reserve a place in Aussie-
I really need some kinds of meditations you know,hihi..
In readers digest it"s stated that all forms of activities or even when you are praying for someone who is at a great distance from you,at the north pole or at the top of the mountain,actually it does help to boost our confidence level as well as it you will much at ease and definitely better in the sense that it keeps your mind in peace.
On top of that,it is also a way to lengthen our lifespans-b
This is due to the fact that we always feel happy and calm and it helps to clear our mind away with the greatest displacement from all the heart-wilting problems..
It is like we are pretending that we are fine and hiding behind the truths and every idiotic and all those silly things that happen in life..
Such a great pretender-B
That is the reason people always say that life is a tough journey and to go through it successfully
we have to willingly accept the facts that we are not the best and there is always somebody who is much greater and even far better than us..
Now,I have to look at this with a new perspective..
Stumbles upon something although it is the most crucial part that occurs in our life does not really a matter..
To fail now does not mean I will fail forever and it does not mean too that I cant rise and stand out among the great people in one fine day..
As a human,I have many weaknesses which I have to brush up to make each thing much smoother in my life not just to stare and wait for all the nasty things to come to me..
No!get rid of me!
With all my strength I promise I will not give up in this important year I do want to put my life at risk just because I am too scared of my own little shadow..
God,family and him will be always stand next to me to give me strength and inspire me..
Although now right at this moment I am feeling like bursting out and initially intended to to go to the top of mountain and yell at the top of my heart so that no one could ever hear me should be the last thing for me to consider now..
I have to accept the facts that I couldnt turn back the time unless doraemon comes and rescue me from this drowning ocean which makes me unable to breathe..
In conclusion,life would be harder in front of you Nabilah and there are more challenges and risks that you will face in the near future..
So,I have to accept this..
I will do and struggle for the sake of my own future..
I will,I will,I will,I will,I will,I will survive...
AMIN...-*-
headcracking tasks..
I am wilting..
I just cant imagine how "wonderful" life I will be leading for the next 9 months..
I loathe this a lot..
The most crucial and unavoidable facts which I have to deal with now is here right in front of me..
My mum always gives me hopes,inspirations to enlighten the darkest tunnel that I have to pass through for the rest of my life..
She often mentions that we are not leadin' a life if we are too scared to fail or undergo hardships in order to succeed..
Only by education,people would only look up at us and we wont get humiliated by them just because of our narrow-minded opinions..
We will become losers and will be always defeated by our enemies..
Later we start to envy them and here every single thing surfaces-rebellions,crimes,injustices and so on..
Though this life is soo damn difficult and to make thing worst is my stone-age attitudes..
I always reason this to myself and to tell you all the truth I never believe in ownself..
To add things even worst,I have no confidence at all to go on eventhough I do know that life as a student would never be at ease..
It is disheartening and inflicting..
Fortunate enough God sent someone who really motivates me..
Now,I got back my spirit and g0d-willing it will continue till I manage to reserve a place in Aussie-
I really need some kinds of meditations you know,hihi..
In readers digest it"s stated that all forms of activities or even when you are praying for someone who is at a great distance from you,at the north pole or at the top of the mountain,actually it does help to boost our confidence level as well as it you will much at ease and definitely better in the sense that it keeps your mind in peace.
On top of that,it is also a way to lengthen our lifespans-b
This is due to the fact that we always feel happy and calm and it helps to clear our mind away with the greatest displacement from all the heart-wilting problems..
It is like we are pretending that we are fine and hiding behind the truths and every idiotic and all those silly things that happen in life..
Such a great pretender-B
That is the reason people always say that life is a tough journey and to go through it successfully
we have to willingly accept the facts that we are not the best and there is always somebody who is much greater and even far better than us..
Now,I have to look at this with a new perspective..
Stumbles upon something although it is the most crucial part that occurs in our life does not really a matter..
To fail now does not mean I will fail forever and it does not mean too that I cant rise and stand out among the great people in one fine day..
As a human,I have many weaknesses which I have to brush up to make each thing much smoother in my life not just to stare and wait for all the nasty things to come to me..
No!get rid of me!
With all my strength I promise I will not give up in this important year I do want to put my life at risk just because I am too scared of my own little shadow..
God,family and him will be always stand next to me to give me strength and inspire me..
Although now right at this moment I am feeling like bursting out and initially intended to to go to the top of mountain and yell at the top of my heart so that no one could ever hear me should be the last thing for me to consider now..
I have to accept the facts that I couldnt turn back the time unless doraemon comes and rescue me from this drowning ocean which makes me unable to breathe..
In conclusion,life would be harder in front of you Nabilah and there are more challenges and risks that you will face in the near future..
So,I have to accept this..
I will do and struggle for the sake of my own future..
I will,I will,I will,I will,I will,I will survive...
AMIN...-*-
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Slumdog Millionaire
This is a movie which I have watched recently..
Before this,I have heard my mates talking about this award-winning movie..
Well,it was casted in Mumbai,India and what is more impressive is that no large sum of money was spent on it..
I could say that it"s a great job done by the director and deserves this achievement..
It is a very simple and sweet movie..this is the one that people are lookin' for now..
Keep it short and simple yet sweet..
Based on the word "slum" itself,it denotes that this will be something which is related to poverty..
but when the words are combined together,which stand as "Slumdog Millionaire",this sounds even more interesting..dont you think so?
..It revolves around the life of a young Indian boy who almost win the 1 miilion rupees and the most surprising part is that he is not well-educated..
He has suffered enough during his chidhood life..struggling and suffering just to survive..
Life as a beggar is really a torture for an innocent little boy like him..
On the other side of the coin,these hardships he has gone through has taught him a lot..
He dwells with all sorts of people around him and becomes more matured before his age..
This moulds him into a better person..
Unfortunately,when he is about to win the one million rupees,his past life starts haunting him again and being threatened by wicked people is really a disgusting thing to see..
I guess i end it here..
Have loads of stuffs to handle..
You should watch it and enjoy!
Tata..
Before this,I have heard my mates talking about this award-winning movie..
Well,it was casted in Mumbai,India and what is more impressive is that no large sum of money was spent on it..
I could say that it"s a great job done by the director and deserves this achievement..
It is a very simple and sweet movie..this is the one that people are lookin' for now..
Keep it short and simple yet sweet..
Based on the word "slum" itself,it denotes that this will be something which is related to poverty..
but when the words are combined together,which stand as "Slumdog Millionaire",this sounds even more interesting..dont you think so?
..It revolves around the life of a young Indian boy who almost win the 1 miilion rupees and the most surprising part is that he is not well-educated..
He has suffered enough during his chidhood life..struggling and suffering just to survive..
Life as a beggar is really a torture for an innocent little boy like him..
On the other side of the coin,these hardships he has gone through has taught him a lot..
He dwells with all sorts of people around him and becomes more matured before his age..
This moulds him into a better person..
Unfortunately,when he is about to win the one million rupees,his past life starts haunting him again and being threatened by wicked people is really a disgusting thing to see..
I guess i end it here..
Have loads of stuffs to handle..
You should watch it and enjoy!
Tata..
Monday, February 9, 2009
The Seniors
The feeling of being left by them still makes me sick..
Really2 sick..
I am still affected by this..
The sorrowness and also the thrills have really changed me into a better person..
Mixtures of feeling..sad+proud of them+nervous as I have realised my mistakes and weaknesses and really have to overcome them a.s.a.p to secure a place in one of the Australian universities..
I was inspired by them to strive my very best in my studies..
Thank u people..
No more fallin' asleep in class..
No mOre procrastination..
I just want to make sure I"l reach my dreamland-Australia-
The reasons?
I want to meet the Aborigines..haha..
Of course everybody wants the best education..
My choices would be either uni of Queensland or UNSW..
Pray hard for that..
I hope I could make it this time..
I could see the excitement that presents from their expressions and their parents were busy snapping hundreds of photos before their children left..
I was really pushed by this-MAKE YOUR MOVE NABILAH-and they have ignited a fire in me..
Thank u once again..
Really2 sick..
I am still affected by this..
The sorrowness and also the thrills have really changed me into a better person..
Mixtures of feeling..sad+proud of them+nervous as I have realised my mistakes and weaknesses and really have to overcome them a.s.a.p to secure a place in one of the Australian universities..
I was inspired by them to strive my very best in my studies..
Thank u people..
No more fallin' asleep in class..
No mOre procrastination..
I just want to make sure I"l reach my dreamland-Australia-
The reasons?
I want to meet the Aborigines..haha..
Of course everybody wants the best education..
My choices would be either uni of Queensland or UNSW..
Pray hard for that..
I hope I could make it this time..
I could see the excitement that presents from their expressions and their parents were busy snapping hundreds of photos before their children left..
I was really pushed by this-MAKE YOUR MOVE NABILAH-and they have ignited a fire in me..
Thank u once again..
Thursday, February 5, 2009
He Knows Well
Arguing,conflicting with my own self,
With the eternal parts which ever existed inside me,
He Knows Well..
Again,It Lingers In My Mind,
Clueless,With No Words To Utter,
Deep Inside Me,
I Just Cant Resist It..
Only He Knows Well..
And Again,Looking,Staring At Those Nasty Things,
It Glued Me At My Seat,Unable To Move,
With Everything That I Have To Deal With,
Only He Knows Well...
I Keep On Praying,Praying,And Praying,
Yeah,
After All The Griefs That Left A Scar On Me,
It Hurts,And Again It Continues,
He Knows Well.......
Arguing,conflicting with my own self,
With the eternal parts which ever existed inside me,
He Knows Well..
Again,It Lingers In My Mind,
Clueless,With No Words To Utter,
Deep Inside Me,
I Just Cant Resist It..
Only He Knows Well..
And Again,Looking,Staring At Those Nasty Things,
It Glued Me At My Seat,Unable To Move,
With Everything That I Have To Deal With,
Only He Knows Well...
I Keep On Praying,Praying,And Praying,
Yeah,
After All The Griefs That Left A Scar On Me,
It Hurts,And Again It Continues,
He Knows Well.......
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Where do you read and study?
Well,usually I read books in my lovely room with the door locked and once I started studying,in your dreams im going to answer your call even you keep on yelling,I"l let you be..hahaa..now,everything is just soo different-the environment-my roommates-
So,now I have to adapt to a new environment with more noises and being surrounded by more people in my room.It"s okey as long as Im still able to concentrate on my studies.-wink-
What is the best time for you to read?
Ermm..I read books in the early morning after having my breakfast.Even till now,I always browse through my notes before going for classes because during this time our brains work best and still fresh,but not after classes when all the facts are being tangled up.Besides,I revise my subjects at night as well.If not,I might forget it.
How long do you normally study without break?
People call me "nerd" because usually I would occupy my leisure time studying and revising.Well, I normally study for 3 to 4 hours without break.Later,I can feel that my brain has become soo crammed.After resting for awhile,you will find me glued at my studytable again till midnight or past midnight before I go to sleep.
What type of distraction bother you the most?
As I mentioned earlier,I wont take notice of you and ignore people around me once I started stdying.hehe..but what bother me the most is when the hunger strikes me and my empty stomach.I would not be able to absorb what I read if im starving!oh gosh!
Another thing that draw my attention is my PS2.KEEP IT AWAY FROM ME!!you knw what,I just cant resist this thing,really,as I would be playing it starting in the morning till the next night and the next one and it continues and only stop when my eyes are out of their socket and start to bleed .haha..
On average,how many different assignments do you work on in one evening?
Ermm..usually I start doing my assignments right after my classes in the library as I hate to procrastinate my homeworks.The faster I finish all those workloads,I will feel at ease as like all the burdens on my shoulders have been cleared.Normally,I would stay back in the library from 2 till 5 and usually I can finish my works during that time but if there"s too much work and if I cant bear it anymore i would just leave it unsolved till at night when I continue doing my works.
What type of rewards might work for you?
I crave for PS3!!!anyone?
hahaah..it"s hard to get it unless I pass my exams with flying colours ,show it to my parents and make them proud of me!
Be patient Nabilah..you will get it!wait for me PS3!
I guess I would just end it here..c ya later!!
Well,usually I read books in my lovely room with the door locked and once I started studying,in your dreams im going to answer your call even you keep on yelling,I"l let you be..hahaa..now,everything is just soo different-the environment-my roommates-
So,now I have to adapt to a new environment with more noises and being surrounded by more people in my room.It"s okey as long as Im still able to concentrate on my studies.-wink-
What is the best time for you to read?
Ermm..I read books in the early morning after having my breakfast.Even till now,I always browse through my notes before going for classes because during this time our brains work best and still fresh,but not after classes when all the facts are being tangled up.Besides,I revise my subjects at night as well.If not,I might forget it.
How long do you normally study without break?
People call me "nerd" because usually I would occupy my leisure time studying and revising.Well, I normally study for 3 to 4 hours without break.Later,I can feel that my brain has become soo crammed.After resting for awhile,you will find me glued at my studytable again till midnight or past midnight before I go to sleep.
What type of distraction bother you the most?
As I mentioned earlier,I wont take notice of you and ignore people around me once I started stdying.hehe..but what bother me the most is when the hunger strikes me and my empty stomach.I would not be able to absorb what I read if im starving!oh gosh!
Another thing that draw my attention is my PS2.KEEP IT AWAY FROM ME!!you knw what,I just cant resist this thing,really,as I would be playing it starting in the morning till the next night and the next one and it continues and only stop when my eyes are out of their socket and start to bleed .haha..
On average,how many different assignments do you work on in one evening?
Ermm..usually I start doing my assignments right after my classes in the library as I hate to procrastinate my homeworks.The faster I finish all those workloads,I will feel at ease as like all the burdens on my shoulders have been cleared.Normally,I would stay back in the library from 2 till 5 and usually I can finish my works during that time but if there"s too much work and if I cant bear it anymore i would just leave it unsolved till at night when I continue doing my works.
What type of rewards might work for you?
I crave for PS3!!!anyone?
hahaah..it"s hard to get it unless I pass my exams with flying colours ,show it to my parents and make them proud of me!
Be patient Nabilah..you will get it!wait for me PS3!
I guess I would just end it here..c ya later!!
Friday, January 16, 2009
What a Tiring Day..
Pheww~here how it all began..I woke up at about 7.30 am in the morning to take my bath after nis.Well,since four of us are sharing the same bathroom,kind of luxurious bathroom,somehow I have to try my very best to wake up as early as possible.I do not want to be late for classes anymore like before and Im determined to change this year as a new and fresh Nabilah.Ok,carry on with my story,then I had my breakfast(just a chocolate biscuit),browsing through my physics notes for 10 minutes and cycled to college.I have started cycling to college few days before,as there"s no more vans for us after our classes end,therefore I decided to cycle evryday from now onwards.At least,I do some forms of exercises isnt it?When I reached college,I went straight to the cafe' where all my friends were still having their breakfast.I didnt eat but was just staring at the physics textbook while waiting for them.Exactly at nine,I went up to class which is at the upper level.While I was walking up the stairs,suddenly I saw an advertisement that"s asking for some donations like used school uniforms,I mean the one that can still be used to be donated to the Palestinians children.Haiz~what a pity for all of them,so to all of you out there,please be compassionate to others and do not just talk crap but move your ass and make some efforts to contribute.Since I only have one class for today,physics,which was from 9-10.30,so I decided to practise the play for our english with other group members.I had my physics quiz just now,which covered the topic of sound wave.Luckily,I managed to do it quite well.At 10.30,I just realised that I have left my wallet at home so I went back.After checking all the money left inside there,that was approximately rm 4.80.Again,I sighed.By hook or by crook I have to make all my way to the Centrepoint which is 5-minutes walk from KBU.On the way there,I lost my direction.What the fish!plus with the scorching heat above me,I just pray to god that I will find my way there..I felt like fainting in the middle of the road but eventually I have found my way after going up the hill then went down then went up again-kind of explorace though.After patrolling for about 10 minutes around the housing area as like I am a COP,finally I was in front of the centrepoint.After withdrawing some money,suddenly I felt so damn hungry and was like dying from starvation,so,I went to Mcd to buy something so that I could fill my stomach.Then,I remember that I"ve promised my friends to practise the play with them,so I quickly grabbed my phone and informed them that Im having my breakfast.About 5 minutes later,I cycled to college again to catch up with them but unfortunately they have finished practising it.I felt so guilty at that time,but I managed to discuss about our english project,with Karen and Izat.
With a sombre and tiring look,I headed to library.Initially,I decided to study and finish all my homeworks but I was too tired and fell asleep in there.Twenty-minutes later,I woke up and continued my studies.Luckily,I could concentrate well as there were lesser distractions in the library because it is Friday.After browsing all the Calculus and Physics notes,at last I found myself landing on the sofa right behind all the racks to relax myself by reading some Reader"s Digest.Then,the hunger striked me again and realising that my stock is finishing soon,so I made up my mind to go One Utama to have some form of relaxation after staring too long at all those facts~haih~ before that,I"ve asked Keng Chai to bring back my physics textbook which is soo damnn heavy.I went there just for awhile which took me about an hourand then I went back.Oh gosh,it was a really hectic day for me and here I am now scribbling something on my blog to let loose myself.Till here and looking forward for happier and brighter days ahead of me~God bless me~
With a sombre and tiring look,I headed to library.Initially,I decided to study and finish all my homeworks but I was too tired and fell asleep in there.Twenty-minutes later,I woke up and continued my studies.Luckily,I could concentrate well as there were lesser distractions in the library because it is Friday.After browsing all the Calculus and Physics notes,at last I found myself landing on the sofa right behind all the racks to relax myself by reading some Reader"s Digest.Then,the hunger striked me again and realising that my stock is finishing soon,so I made up my mind to go One Utama to have some form of relaxation after staring too long at all those facts~haih~ before that,I"ve asked Keng Chai to bring back my physics textbook which is soo damnn heavy.I went there just for awhile which took me about an hourand then I went back.Oh gosh,it was a really hectic day for me and here I am now scribbling something on my blog to let loose myself.Till here and looking forward for happier and brighter days ahead of me~God bless me~
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Canossa Convent
I miss my secondary life in this school!!..it was the greatest school I have ever been to..really..the nicest and bestest school im telling ya..all gurl school is always a good one *wink*,no interferences between boys and girls~then we can do whatever we desire as no boys are watching us or our "wrongdoings"..^^,..I could give my greatest attention on my studies,yeah,and I miss those days when we were spending time together..missing every single moment of it~some of my friends were just sooo damnn nerdd as they were always with their books,hugged them so tightly as like there was the UHU-glue being sticked on those books..Even during recess time,they don"t even bother to eat and I was like-"Didnt they recognize the word "hunger"??..hmm,but good thing about that was when it"s time for us to submit our assignments,haha,we really utilised them-)..thanks to Eileen,Add maths experts,super expert!she could solve all the add maths problems just in a blink of an eye..
I miss you Eileen~hmm..Usually,the boys from Malacca High School and also St.Francis Institution,came over to our school when our school held activities like the PBSM campfires,prom night and lotz more~Those were good ones~hihi..Apart from that,I do miss at the time when I joined a Digi project in which we as a team worked and co-operate with each other to raise funds in enabling us to commence our project.As for example,we sold the Floats during recess time,did jumbo sales in The Salvation Army(Orphanage home),and did some performances in Jonker Street in Malacca where I had an opportunity to involve in a traditional Chinese dance..woo..thick make-up and i just dont like it..With all the efforts and those hardworks,we had managed to become the runner-up for the competition..cool experience though it was a tiring one and I would say that I"ve lost my concentration on my studies at that time when I was form Four.Luckily,I"ve managed to bring all the hard situations into normal back and caught up with what I"ve missed.Im a person who do not really prefer to join study group,yeah I know it"s good to boost our academics performance-yet I just dont like it no matter how hard my friends forced me to.Once I said I dont want,I really mean that!I was a stubborn student,did whatever I like without bothering what others really think about me-*and if I want something-aha-You must get it for me no matter how, either in the midnight,early morning..By hook or by crook,I must have it or if not..*no offence*..I was a librarian too when I was in form Four and since there were only 3 malay students in my class,so I was among the selected one..Oh god~I had enough dust particles and all the dirts that went right through my lungs as we have to make the library as clean as possible and well since we were good ones,we did all the responsibilities happily^^-I also joined the choir team and it had been great to have worked with them..our conductor,a lovely Chinese girl,did her job really well!I respect her!and she was among the main contributors to our winnings in some competitons..We sang a beautiful song of Mahsuri and an old English song,Stand by Me,with the melody and rthym altered and renewed by our club advisor,Ms.Wong.Talking about our teachers now,yeah,we had very great,super-duper intelligent teachers especially our maths+add maths teacher?(same person),Miss Tan.Indeed,she would always make us very elated with her " so liitle assignments (at least 5-6 pages exercises per day")..that made us wanted to cry each day because we couldnt sleep till we have finished all the workloads and not only from her+biology assignments+tuiton homeworks(which I always left the papers blank) and only started doing it in class..OO..it was a really tiring year in Form Four anf Five.Also,I dint prefer to do sports and just hate it coz it made me exhausted and really despised it at the time when my name was called to do the stupid high jump(that left a scar on my leg)..and plus the long jump..but I did join the cheerleading team but unfortunately that didnt last long coz i had to quit from it due to packed schedule.Haiz~what can I say and my mum didnt allow me to join that too as she was too scared if I neglected my studies because it involved a lot of trainings and practices before the competition day..Oh ya,I had some great Portuguese friends,the Eurasians,they spoke Kristang and I"ve learnt some Kristang words too and they are quite similar to Bahasa Melayu.kind of~yeah,I think that"s all and I end evrything here and I hope my memories about my school will not fade just like that..that"s the reason i wrote this down..ok daa~
KBU and AUSMAT
Well,what should I define about KBU International College is that it"s rarely known by people..I wonder why~..it is neither too huge nor too small..seventh floor is its highest level,no fourth level(wondering again~),with a dark cafe' and super-cool library,=B.Speaking on its students,well,you could see lots of foreigners or formally called international students once you stepped into this college.You will definitely see the Iranians,Koreans,Nigerians and etc.In addition,it"s one of the chosen colleges where we,JPA scholars,study to complete our foundation studies.Most of us are doing Australian Matriculation(AUSMAT)programme which need one whole year to complete it.Yeah,this is what I heard about this programme.>I am one of the scholars and eventhough we"re here just few days or one week,oh my god!it"s what our seniors and lecturers have been telling and kept on warning us to work really hard for that!now it"s no more phantasized stories but it"s the reality which we are facing now!Well,we have just started it last tuesday as the day before that was an orientation day for us as well as the new students who enrolled in this college.I would say it was a tiring week for all of us because we had loads of works,assignments with the coming-up projects and presentations too.Oh god!make me stronger to face all these hardships and struggles~Well.bitterness in life do make us a stronger person right?..so,let"s enjoy the bittersweet in life!I promised im going to work really hard and gonna do well in my TEE exams by the end of this year,this coming November.Most importantly,i do not want to taint KBU"s good image as well as the government who have been sponsoring us for all this while and of course my beloved parents.My aim is is I just want to make them proud of me!That"s enough.What I want to say here is just im gonna do my bestest to make all proud of me and leave the rest just to god!may god bless me~
Friday, January 9, 2009
Twilight
Hey here i am again..though now im writing down my second blog,yet im still stuck to shake my ideas out of my crammed brain~so,i guess i would just scribble down something about this movie,Twilight.Well,I"ve watched it last year with few friends that was few days before our IELTS.The movie was not what we expected it to be as we have read the novels before we watched the movie.So,we were kind of a bit disappointed but I do agree that the movie was still fine especially with all the great actors and actresses.Robert Pattinson who portrayed the main character,Edward,has caught my great attention^^,oops!
He was really cute and hot with his brownish eyes and being a so protective vampire had managed to captivate everyone"s heart.Although there were some parts missing,but it was still a great work done by Stephanie Meyer,the director of Twilight,with all the stunts and lots of computer graphics were required and it"s not an easy task for her.The movie revolved around settings like forest,high school where Edward and his siblings as well as Bella,who were his lover went and some other places which were the most preferred by vampires~YOU KNOW WHERE~It"s a story with great romance which were portrayed by Bella and her lover,Edward,who were really protective over Bella eventhough he"s a vampire plus all the great challenges he had to face for being fallen in love with humans.For instance,his rivals,James,who was too a vampire,was craving for Bella"s blood at the first time he sensed it.Therefore,he was always with Bella because he didnt want her to get harmed by anyone.When Bella was nearly killed by James,he was there to protect her and sucked her blood to prevent her from turning into a vampire after being bitten by James.At the last part of the movie,they were happy to be together again but the ending was kind of bad and"ugly" as it was too far from our expectations!Thus,I do hope that the second,third and the fourth would be doing fine then..yeah~Im looking forward for the New Moon,Eclipse and Breaking Dawn~till here..bye
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