Assigments,tests..

Frankly speaking here,the most terrible part in my life now is that I have to go through all these
headcracking tasks..
I am wilting..
I just cant imagine how "wonderful" life I will be leading for the next 9 months..
I loathe this a lot..
The most crucial and unavoidable facts which I have to deal with now is here right in front of me..
My mum always gives me hopes,inspirations to enlighten the darkest tunnel that I have to pass through for the rest of my life..
She often mentions that we are not leadin' a life if we are too scared to fail or undergo hardships in order to succeed..
Only by education,people would only look up at us and we wont get humiliated by them just because of our narrow-minded opinions..
We will become losers and will be always defeated by our enemies..
Later we start to envy them and here every single thing surfaces-rebellions,crimes,injustices and so on..
Though this life is soo damn difficult and to make thing worst is my stone-age attitudes..
I always reason this to myself and to tell you all the truth I never believe in ownself..
To add things even worst,I have no confidence at all to go on eventhough I do know that life as a student would never be at ease..
It is disheartening and inflicting..
Fortunate enough God sent someone who really motivates me..
Now,I got back my spirit and g0d-willing it will continue till I manage to reserve a place in Aussie-
I really need some kinds of meditations you know,hihi..
In readers digest it"s stated that all forms of activities or even when you are praying for someone who is at a great distance from you,at the north pole or at the top of the mountain,actually it does help to boost our confidence level as well as it you will much at ease and definitely better in the sense that it keeps your mind in peace.
On top of that,it is also a way to lengthen our lifespans-b
This is due to the fact that we always feel happy and calm and it helps to clear our mind away with the greatest displacement from all the heart-wilting problems..
It is like we are pretending that we are fine and hiding behind the truths and every idiotic and all those silly things that happen in life..
Such a great pretender-B
That is the reason people always say that life is a tough journey and to go through it successfully
we have to willingly accept the facts that we are not the best and there is always somebody who is much greater and even far better than us..
Now,I have to look at this with a new perspective..
Stumbles upon something although it is the most crucial part that occurs in our life does not really a matter..
To fail now does not mean I will fail forever and it does not mean too that I cant rise and stand out among the great people in one fine day..
As a human,I have many weaknesses which I have to brush up to make each thing much smoother in my life not just to stare and wait for all the nasty things to come to me..
No!get rid of me!
With all my strength I promise I will not give up in this important year I do want to put my life at risk just because I am too scared of my own little shadow..
God,family and him will be always stand next to me to give me strength and inspire me..
Although now right at this moment I am feeling like bursting out and initially intended to to go to the top of mountain and yell at the top of my heart so that no one could ever hear me should be the last thing for me to consider now..
I have to accept the facts that I couldnt turn back the time unless doraemon comes and rescue me from this drowning ocean which makes me unable to breathe..
In conclusion,life would be harder in front of you Nabilah and there are more challenges and risks that you will face in the near future..
So,I have to accept this..
I will do and struggle for the sake of my own future..
I will,I will,I will,I will,I will,I will survive...
AMIN...-*-